All posts tagged: feelings

Skipping the Company Work Party

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I just want this weekend to never end. In a weird way, it has stretched past more than normal. It almost seems like it’s been a few more days than two. Yesterday, I was supposed to attend my company work party, but I ended up not feeling up for it. I don’t mean to be negative but I am really over the encroachment of my personal/professional lives. I do not want to attend anymore work […]

A Stressful Holiday Season 2018

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Whew! I have finally completed nearly all of my holiday shopping–I just want it to be over. This isn’t like me as I do enjoy giving gifts and surprising someone with a present. However, this year, I just haven’t felt it. I have completed the motions, fulfilled my obligations, but I am still waiting for that Christmasy feeling to take over. The holidays have felt extremely contrived–entirely inauthentic. I have despised everything to do with it: […]

Hermit Saturday

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Hiding from the world today, writing my heart out. These days are rare and I am thankful that I get even this one. Sometimes, writing is the only way I stop myself from saying or doing something that I truly regret. My anger can really bottle up, bubbles of rage that threaten to boil over. It’s not that I wish that people would do what I say or that things have to go my way. […]

Sunday Motivation: Move Along

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I’ve always held this song from All American Rejects close to my heart. This has been a rough week for me–but I know it has been a tough one for us all. With all of the unexpected suicides catching our breaths and reminding us that we all face struggles. For me, it also makes me realize that what we are searching for may not be what we need. We always think that we need wealth […]

My Vision of Success?

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My last few posts have fallen on the negative side and I truly wish there was no need to travel such a low path. The reason that I’ve allowed myself to remain honest with how I feel is because I value emotional truth. I just don’t think that lying to oneself does any favors but suppress an uncomfortable sensation. For me, attempting to stamp out any unpleasant emotions does nothing but ensure a future explosion. […]

Attempting to Separate Myself from My Emotions…

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The past few weeks have left me inundated with sadness. I have tried every attempt to cheer myself up but it has resulted in nothing but poor decisions and impulse purchases. I wish that shopping wasn’t such a cathartic experience because I just stack on my debt this way. Unfortunately, nothing but buying has been able to keep my mind off my negative emotions. I have tried and tried to determine what is causing my […]

Lost in Anxiety

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I am not certain why each day has left me more and more anxious. I feel like I am doing everything wrong and couldn’t be more lost. There’s so many things that I need to change–to mend–and I can’t figure out where to begin. I don’t know why I struggle so much to figure out my life. I am a constant seeker of knowledge–running to the self-help books and guides with the hopes that I […]