2.19 General Tarot Reading

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I’ve been a bundle of emotions these past couple of weeks. The stress at the day job has steadily increased from “too much” to “unbearable.” I’ve been looking for something better but there has hardly been jobs I can apply for. These events have left me feeling so stuck. When I’m stuck, I go to the cards for advice.

This is a general 3-card spread that I do: simply shuffling the cards and drawing three cards. I don’t even ponder a question, I’m more curious as to what the cards are interpreting from me. I am a fan of these Believing Heart cards because they capture the essence of attending a school of magic ^_____^

I drew:
Two of Cauldrons (2 of cups)
0-The Fool
8-Strength

It was inspiring to see such strong cards during such a stressful time. The Fool was exceptionally spot-on because spiritually, I have started a new journey towards creating my future. I’ve also been living very spontaneously, so weary of the routine. It’s taken so much courage to press forward (all I want to do is hide) and I can really see the strength needed here. The two of cauldrons speaks to how I’ve been learning on family during this trying time.

Also, seeing the Fool in the center really shows me seeing myself as the Fool. This couldn’t be more accurate, everything that the Fool represents about living in the moment–starting a new journey.

After reading these cards, I see that I just need to meditate more on my strength. I feel so powerless and vulnerable right now, but the cards see something else.

Blog Refocus: Creating My Future

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I’ve been wanting to give my blog direction for a few months, but have struggled to come up with a clear direction.

My problem is always that I am over-inspired, and find many things profoundly interesting. I love living in the information age, it is a lot to take in from the internet but my curious mind is always satisfied (or terrified from what’s out there).

Despite finding many great pieces of knowledge out there, I’ve struggled with a deep sadness–depression. So many parts of my life are lagging behind, I’m just stuck. But what I am doing is taking what I learn every day from this world and trying to apply it to help push my life in a better direction.

A quote from Jim Rohn touches on this perfectly:

“Don’t let your learning lead to knowledge. Let your learning lead to action.”

Elon Musk: Shaping Our Futures

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I am a big fan of the Biographics channel and would recommend checking out as many of their videos as you can. I’ve always enjoyed the videos from host Simon Whistler, he seems to delight in learning things for the sake of learning as much as I do. Sometimes I feel like the only nerd out there who wants to feed her brain with as much random and interesting knowledge as she can. Simon seems to be the same, which gives me hope that there are others out there.

With the Biographics channel, you’ll find interesting biographies on a variety of eccentric people. Well, anyone who accomplished anything crazy came off eccentric in one way or another, which also gives me hope that it’s ok to be strange and weird.

Circling back to Elon’s video, what I found strange about him was how he doesn’t allow the impossibility of the obstacle to affect him. Well, even if he does, he still sets out to create the future he wants–which I really found inspiring. Every business idea of his was shot down by the haters who said it couldn’t be done. If I was starting a business with a big idea and a slew of people spoke their disapproval, I’d really doubt myself and feel like I was probably making a bad mistake. But not Elon, when people said space travel couldn’t be handled by anyone other than NASA, well, look who got the contract from them to work on building rockets.

I think I connected with his story for many reasons, but one reason was how I often think that my ideas are dumb, even if no one says they are, I just really doubt myself and expect the worst. But Elon still has people who disagree with his vision and he is still bringing it to life. I think all of us can find such great inspiration in that.

Believing in our ideas, visions, and dreams are what help us to create the life we want.

Source:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClnDI2sdehVm1zm_LmUHsjQ

Adaptational Attractiveness: An Interesting Watch

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This video from Trope Anatomy educates about the concept of adaptational attractiveness, a term that describes when characters from books are represented by much more attractive actors in film adaptations. It’s a concept that I’ve noticed but have never known what to term it as.

I can honestly say that I’ve a gained a new perspective from this video, because I’ve never given much thought to adaptational attractiveness. I think because in the past, I just accepted that actors are always beautiful people. No matter how ‘average’ and ‘ordinary’ they refer themselves as, they are still beautiful. I can’t change Hollywood, so why dwell on it? But now my new perspective is, yes, actors may be gorgeous, but they are still doing a character from a book great disservice by not being represented accurately.

What I like about Trope Anatomy is that their arguments are well-balanced and level, you can tell that they really thinks about all sides before constructing the videos. For Trope, adaptation attractiveness really doesn’t come off problematic unless it affects the story or the character. According to Trope, sometimes the depth and layers of the story can be altered. I never thought about this, but if a character’s arc has anything to do with their outward appearance, then the arc would be compromised in the film version. Also, Trope points out that sometimes a character’s flaws are glossed over to match their appealing appearance. This is definitely a huge issue since characters should never be flawless.

For anyone who enjoys books and films, this video is a very interesting watch. It really shines a light on how films alter characters. Sometimes adaptational attractiveness can be really unconscious, and it surprised me in Trope’s examples, cases of adaptational attractiveness that I completely missed. It made me be aware of the fact that I am sometimes blind to Hollywood glossing up book characters.

That is not a good thing.

Sources:

https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/AdaptationalAttractiveness

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-QvtVCaLPmiSMNNEZYVIYQ

 

Sparking Joy in the New Year

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I’ve owned Marie Kondo’s books for a while now, but have failed to take the time to read them. I often feel too rushed to curl up with a book. But after enjoying one episode of her new Netflix series, I pushed myself to make time to read. It’s always going to be busy and I no longer want this to be an excuse anymore.

I’m intrigued by Marie’s KonMari organizational method because of its different approach. I’ve never completed any of the steps of KonMari before and sure enough, I’ve never been able to master being organized. If I see myself constantly failing at something, I’m one of those people who isn’t stubborn in the slightest. If I keep screwing up, I’m sure I’m the common denominator and I’m more than happy to abandon everything I know and try something different.

The main discrepancy between my old approach and the KonMari method is the focus. In the past, I would just focus on cleaning rooms. Marie says that this avenue doesn’t work–cleaning rooms is mostly shuffling stuff from one room to another. And this is accurate, as I mainly just stuff things where I can. No surprise, the mess always returns. Nowadays, I just don’t have the time to keep redoing my work, so I’ve just stopped cleaning. I’m sure an outsider would call this laziness, for me it’s frustration. The work I do is undone, it’s my fault it’s undone, and I don’t know how to make it better. I know it’s me, I know I’m not doing something correctly, but I don’t have time to just keep wasting my time.

Hence why I’ve turned to really delving into the KonMari method–to have an expert tell me what to do to get on track. What’s great about books is that the expert can be there in spirit, guiding you on a better path. What I love about reading Marie’s book, Spark Joy is that she is not stating the obvious. Many of her insights are completely illuminating, and I’ve found myself asking new questions about my organizational process.

My biggest question has been: what sparks joy in my life?

Sadly, I don’t have the slightest insight into what possessions give me joy. I’ve always seen my clutter as an enemy, it’s tough to think about it in a positive way. But I see why I have so much stuff, because it’s impossible for me to discern what I really treasure. I can tell that this will be a process and that I’m going to have to work on it every day. Well, at least it’s the new year and I can’t think of a more timely moment to begin a new journey.

Korean Pear Confusion

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Are Korean pears supposed to be this crunchy?

I’m not really sure–they taste sweet and fruity but so, so crunchy.

Like baby apple crunchy or fresh-picked melon.

The flavor is sweet and light (though I’m not getting an intense pear flavor) with a water chestnut-like texture.

Why??

I’ve had these for a few weeks, maybe I messed up?

I’m usually a big fan of fruit but texture really is my thang. I can’t handle weird texture above all else.

Drinking Away Monday

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Yeah, I’m having a hard case of the “Mondays” tonight. Today wasn’t too bad of day, though I’m a bit envious of my coworkers who have a bit of vacation left. Everyone always seems to harbor way more vacation time then I do–all I can do is let it go and drink about it.

Forget them.

I never overdo it with alcohol, so me “drinking about it” is a couple of sips before passing out in last year’s Christmas pajamas.

I am currently enjoying Jim Bean’s Apple Bourbon Whiskey. This whiskey finishes with a nice burn and a slight aftertaste of apple which you can notice. I love the fruity notes at the end and can’t recommend it enough to whiskey/apple fans.

I love those late nights when the evening can just extend forever (or give the illusion of at least). I ran several errands this evening but still got to indulge in a bit of retail therapy and grocery shopping. I made the mistake of going to Goodwill and actually bought several bags of goods that I probably shouldn’t have.

Goodwill is my kryptonite because I have such a curious mind and find everything interest. Stop it mind, just stop it. I can just buy bags and bags of what others would call “junk” because I find it intriguing.

I have a confession to make: I bought a Rolodex. Yeah, a Rolodex *bows head in shame* even the cashier commented on how archaic it is but I really wanted it and it was only a buck! That’s just a glimpse of my mindset and I’m sure you can easily see why I get in trouble at a place that has random, inexpensive goods. And I brought home all of my “treasures” and hid them from sight so the bf doesn’t notice them.

The whiskey is making me real honest tonight. Though my confessions are pretty nerdy and lame like me hahaha.